It's been a long time  since I thought of the idea to starting blogging.

So, as I embark knowing nothing about this writing adventure of putting some of my thoughts  or a collective of other thinkers ideas, I cannot stop worrying if this will go anywhere or if it will be useful for anyone who reads it.

I guess by default, anxiety and fear present themselves as part of a warning: don't go there, what's the point for such exposure, not one is interested, you are trying to be someone you are not, feeling like an impostor?, someone already wrote something like that, you are wasting your time, etc, etc, etc. Does this sound familiar? does this resonate to any part of you? It sit only me who create this anxious narratives before I start with a new project? Do these projects ever live enough to be launched?

Well, mine has been in one of the drawers of my brain, shut with the best security locks I could find in this mind of mine, not seeing the light for years! And I can tell you that right now, each word that is typed here, for the time being, is carefully selected to avoid any kind of disapproval, disappointment, boredom and eventually judgement. What a terrifying cocktail of thoughts I just came out with! And I'm just realising that I don't have any control over how this will be received!

Anyway, I am already here, and ready to give it a go even though one part of me expects all of the above. For now, this is my starting point. Nothing too deep, nothing too heavy. Getting steady and slowly out of my comfort zone and allowing myself to experience whatever this brings including the uncomfortable. Who knows, maybe with time, this becomes second nature or I decide to give up blogging after a while.

All I can do for now, is seat with this uncertain feelings of not really knowing what I am doing and give it my best shot. Staying present and trying not to overthink much, breathing and not taking it too seriously.

But before I go, I would like to put two questions out there. Think about anything you wanted to do but you haven't started it yet. What are the obstacles that prevent you for just trying? How would it feel for you just start trying?

Be mindful with your reflections. Hope you find very interesting answers!

Until next time x

Pic: Hiking somewhere near Ullswater